Change

Its a funny thing coming home . Nothing changes , everything looks the same, feels the same , even smells the same. You realize whats changed is you !!

Brad Pitt....The curious case of Benjamin Button

For a long time now I have been trying to articulate this feeling that i have experienced when everything around me has continued to function in the same familiar manner and yet I have felt the change inside me ..This has been triggered either by an incident or some real life changes which feels safe to deal with . Its not a tough thing to change yourself or the way of life due to some compelling environmental transition . But when the change is due to another person that's when it leaves me confused and seeking answers that I may actually not even be interested any more...

I have found that a person can completely change your whole perspective about him/her through an action or a reaction that I would not deem right to label under any category of emotional intelligence . The silliest of the actions does reveal the true subconscious self and the briefest of the expressions speak volumes about the inherent nature of the person and what makes him/her...I am not debating if that is good or bad .....I have experienced that as making a significant impact on the way I feel and have come back knowing that something has changed inside me ...

Its a strange feeling dealing with this change that does not come under the definition of anger or grief . You can be as mad as a mad dog or be grieved to a point of self pity but when it comes to the end you have to let it go...but once you change from within that how it goes for you...